I'm going back to last Friday to say what happened..
Friday
It was the day when my cousin, Paul was coming to our house to stay for 3 days, 2 nights.
It was also the day that our family kinda 'volunteered' ourselves for a event organised by *HealthServe around somewhere in Ang Mo Kio..
Kah Mun was messenging me then, she said something to me (though i'll won't tell you)
I told her about my class this year.. She started to say some words that kinda hurt me though she doesn't know.. *sob*
She told me to get out of Normal Stream & into Express.. & alot of other things that i won't tell..
Speaking of going to Express only made me felt more guilty than usual for not working hard enough in the PSLE.. To say the truth, I started crying then thinking of what I've told myself before..(flashback)
" I must prove myself to my parents that I'm not useless..
I must not dissapoint them this time..
I must achieve my goals & pass with flying colours..
I must go to the Express Stream No Matter What!.."
& what I've said again to myself after recieving my PSLE rsults...
"But... What happened?!
I only dissapoint my parents once again!
I didn't prove myself that I'm not useless!!
I didn't achieve my goals nor pass with flying colours!!!
Most importantly, I didn't go to the express stream but... "
At that time, I really was starting to hate myself more & more..
When suddenly, Paul cheered me up as always..
I never once was thinking about my negative thoughts about myself all the time Paul was there..
Guess he's another angel sent by God to cheer me up whenever I'm depressed.. =)
