Everybody has different expectations for different people around them...
But people these days have TOO HIGH EXPECTATIONS!! =,='
When we do something wrong & not being able to meet up that expectation, all they do is complain, complain &..... More complaints... When the tables are turned, & when its time when we complain, they beg & say our expectations are too high.. People think about themselves & not think about those around them & how they hurt them when they claimed they just 'play-play'..
Its hard... For me to meet up all these expectations as a friend, classmate, pupil, daughter, sister, cg member, usher & a christian.. (=.= okay, maybe not so many for you guys..) Just feeling that i'm really not meeting up the expectations of all of you guys. (Sorry to dissapoint) But i'm already trying my best, & quite a few things has happened this year & i feel that i'm at the end of the rope, already preparing to surrender to a fight.. Just that i'm just dissapointed with a few people.. I'm tired of doing other people's orders & not mine. Its so frustrating when someone dissapoints you especially when you just started to have your trust in them..
Thought i made perhaps the friend i always wanted, & yet her expectations were too high & complaint straightly infront of me. When the tables got turn, she told me to forget it & stop nagging.. (Direct stab in the heart) At least i've learnt my lesson..
I'm not gonna get too close to anyone ever again, in case they stab me again or...
I just don't ever want the same things to happen again.. Its always the same...
Friday, September 25, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Lost control
Returned from cell today with a deeply disturb heart today..
Got a phone call from someone from my class & asking me stupid things that i don't even know.(What's the point of asking?)
Yesterday...
Kai Jie passed me a torn & crumpled paper during PW saying it was mine's. Looked at it after a while then realised IT WAS MY OWN ENGLISH CORRECTION PAPER that i needed to hand up. It was torn, crumpled & with some idiot game of 'bingo' some ppl in the class plays writting on it.. First person that i turn to was a bunch of indian guys that always played that game.
Saren said SamyNathan took it from under my table, torn it to half & passed it to him just to play that stupid, idiot & COMPLETELY POINTLESS game.
Turned to SamyNathan with the paper askin' : Very funny har?
His reaction? Smile to me than say sorry as if it was nothing.
Turned to Sitaa next & said 'Sorry, but tell your 'good friend'(Samy) there i'm telling Ms Mala what he did. Sitaa just say 'nevermind, its okay, just tell ms mala.'
After knowing i was gonna tell Ms Mala the two ppl came begging me not to say & saying sorry as if it is a totally pointless word. (Seriously, they really kneeled down) First thing i thought was that they are totally cowards that didn't want to own up their actions..
WHAT KIND OF PLACE AM I IN????!!!!!!!
Then today aft cell another person in class call me & ask if I got complain her to Ms Mala abt the yesterday thing. WHAT THE HECK?! She was totally unrelated & she asked such an irritating question.. Then she told me another person told her that i complained her to Ms Mala. WHAT =.=''........ At first, the only problem with this... This buch of ppl was that they always did stupid things that gave me so much stress. But this is really unbelievable.. & the some idiot went to spread this thing to the whole class also..
I HAD IT, I HAD IT, I HAD IT! This is too much. If i knew better i could have continued walking 2 days ago on that road & let that taxi hit me down.. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. I CAN NO LONGER CONTROL MY EMOTIONS.(I even cried in class yesterday for no reason.)
Got a phone call from someone from my class & asking me stupid things that i don't even know.(What's the point of asking?)
Yesterday...
Kai Jie passed me a torn & crumpled paper during PW saying it was mine's. Looked at it after a while then realised IT WAS MY OWN ENGLISH CORRECTION PAPER that i needed to hand up. It was torn, crumpled & with some idiot game of 'bingo' some ppl in the class plays writting on it.. First person that i turn to was a bunch of indian guys that always played that game.
Saren said SamyNathan took it from under my table, torn it to half & passed it to him just to play that stupid, idiot & COMPLETELY POINTLESS game.
Turned to SamyNathan with the paper askin' : Very funny har?
His reaction? Smile to me than say sorry as if it was nothing.
Turned to Sitaa next & said 'Sorry, but tell your 'good friend'(Samy) there i'm telling Ms Mala what he did. Sitaa just say 'nevermind, its okay, just tell ms mala.'
After knowing i was gonna tell Ms Mala the two ppl came begging me not to say & saying sorry as if it is a totally pointless word. (Seriously, they really kneeled down) First thing i thought was that they are totally cowards that didn't want to own up their actions..
WHAT KIND OF PLACE AM I IN????!!!!!!!
Then today aft cell another person in class call me & ask if I got complain her to Ms Mala abt the yesterday thing. WHAT THE HECK?! She was totally unrelated & she asked such an irritating question.. Then she told me another person told her that i complained her to Ms Mala. WHAT =.=''........ At first, the only problem with this... This buch of ppl was that they always did stupid things that gave me so much stress. But this is really unbelievable.. & the some idiot went to spread this thing to the whole class also..
I HAD IT, I HAD IT, I HAD IT! This is too much. If i knew better i could have continued walking 2 days ago on that road & let that taxi hit me down.. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. I CAN NO LONGER CONTROL MY EMOTIONS.(I even cried in class yesterday for no reason.)
Monday, September 14, 2009
Finally out..
English: 78, Grade: 1, Max Mark: 80
Chinese N(a): 53, Grade: 5, Max Mark: 88
Mathematics: 58, Grade: 5, Max Mark: 96
Science: 56, Grade: 5, Max Mark: 83
Geography(revised): 72, Grade: 2, Max Mark: 92
History(revised): 67, Grade: 3, Max Mark: 93
Literature(E): 80, Grade: 1, Max Mark: 90
D&T: 53, Grade Mark: 5, Max Mark: 78
Art: 83, Grade Mark: 1, Max Mark: 83
Finally got them back.. [Max Mark is the highest mark in class.]
Ahh.. Suddenly so many more grade 5s.. *sob*
Science, Chinese & History deproved.. But finally got a grade 1 for english & literature..
Hey, but at least i managed to pass everything!!
Just need to improve more on the weaker subjects..
Chinese N(a): 53, Grade: 5, Max Mark: 88
Mathematics: 58, Grade: 5, Max Mark: 96
Science: 56, Grade: 5, Max Mark: 83
Geography(revised): 72, Grade: 2, Max Mark: 92
History(revised): 67, Grade: 3, Max Mark: 93
Literature(E): 80, Grade: 1, Max Mark: 90
D&T: 53, Grade Mark: 5, Max Mark: 78
Art: 83, Grade Mark: 1, Max Mark: 83
Finally got them back.. [Max Mark is the highest mark in class.]
Ahh.. Suddenly so many more grade 5s.. *sob*
Science, Chinese & History deproved.. But finally got a grade 1 for english & literature..
Hey, but at least i managed to pass everything!!
Just need to improve more on the weaker subjects..
Friday, September 11, 2009
NOOOOOOO
Eh, what kind of holiday is this.. Its ending & my homework are all still untouched. O.o
Exams are coming! Stress.. Going to work hard, JiaYou, JiaYou!
Having lesser & lesser things to post these few days.. Boring days.
Went back to school for C.O practises yesterday & today, raining.. Funny thing was that a monkey came out of no where & appeared outside of the class window when practicing.. Haha, our instructor got frightened when standing beside the window..
Gotta finish all my homework by tomorrow, or else the teachers will come chasing then the form teacher will compare us with 1N2 again.. =.= Why do they like to compare us like that?! Staying us back almost every Friday just to say good things about 1N2 infront of us. Sheesh, we didn't ask for their review.. I gotta get out of this class, or I'll be asking for another few years of comparing.. Its too obvious.. The number of ppl who raised up their hands then & now.. We'll all discouraged thanks to comparing this & that.. I'm already trying my best & yet it only gets bad to worse. That place is really turning more & more like a living hell.
Eh, what kind of holiday is this.. Its ending & my homework are all still untouched. O.o
Exams are coming! Stress.. Going to work hard, JiaYou, JiaYou!
Having lesser & lesser things to post these few days.. Boring days.
Went back to school for C.O practises yesterday & today, raining.. Funny thing was that a monkey came out of no where & appeared outside of the class window when practicing.. Haha, our instructor got frightened when standing beside the window..
Gotta finish all my homework by tomorrow, or else the teachers will come chasing then the form teacher will compare us with 1N2 again.. =.= Why do they like to compare us like that?! Staying us back almost every Friday just to say good things about 1N2 infront of us. Sheesh, we didn't ask for their review.. I gotta get out of this class, or I'll be asking for another few years of comparing.. Its too obvious.. The number of ppl who raised up their hands then & now.. We'll all discouraged thanks to comparing this & that.. I'm already trying my best & yet it only gets bad to worse. That place is really turning more & more like a living hell.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
31st August 09, Monday
Went back to KCS for Teacher's Day. But only 1.15 than can go in & got chased out @ 2.30.. ?!
But dissapointing, not even more than half of them went back last mon..
1st September 09, Tuesday
Went to SIM for the photography project 'Global Casting' with Dad. Not much of a very 'hard work'.
6th September 09, Sunday
Went back to church.. FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!
The train in the morning was...... SUPER EMPTY! (lol)
Was on duty, but was also quite boring, got stationed at a door, again.... I lost count which time it was it.. Maybe the 5th or 6th.. Went home alone after service since PY went to join the other for lunch.. Peace & Quiet...
7th September 09, Monday
The whole day, was out with Dad. Its always an adventure going out with my Dad.. In th, We morning, went out first to pass something to one of Dad's customer.. Went to Army Open House 09 after that. Almost the same as last time, just a few new Tanks.. Like the Terrex ICV.. Got a chance to use a real gun!! SAR 21 made by our own Singaporeans, the experience was AWESOME. Was given 5 bullets, which meant 5 shots. Eh, not bad leh, i got 4/5 shots!! (I'm a Killa! LOL) Went to Vivo after that, Dad still wanted to see more Tank models after seeing the real stuff the whole day..(His hobby, Planes & Tank Models) Went to see G Force in 3D! Loved it! That one day, MRT's Circle line, North East line, all of them, we've travelled them all...
Went back to KCS for Teacher's Day. But only 1.15 than can go in & got chased out @ 2.30.. ?!
But dissapointing, not even more than half of them went back last mon..
1st September 09, Tuesday
Went to SIM for the photography project 'Global Casting' with Dad. Not much of a very 'hard work'.
6th September 09, Sunday
Went back to church.. FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!
The train in the morning was...... SUPER EMPTY! (lol)
Was on duty, but was also quite boring, got stationed at a door, again.... I lost count which time it was it.. Maybe the 5th or 6th.. Went home alone after service since PY went to join the other for lunch.. Peace & Quiet...
7th September 09, Monday
The whole day, was out with Dad. Its always an adventure going out with my Dad.. In th, We morning, went out first to pass something to one of Dad's customer.. Went to Army Open House 09 after that. Almost the same as last time, just a few new Tanks.. Like the Terrex ICV.. Got a chance to use a real gun!! SAR 21 made by our own Singaporeans, the experience was AWESOME. Was given 5 bullets, which meant 5 shots. Eh, not bad leh, i got 4/5 shots!! (I'm a Killa! LOL) Went to Vivo after that, Dad still wanted to see more Tank models after seeing the real stuff the whole day..(His hobby, Planes & Tank Models) Went to see G Force in 3D! Loved it! That one day, MRT's Circle line, North East line, all of them, we've travelled them all...
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