Up coming Videos that i wanna make...

YO!
Having a urge to do videos these few days... So these are the videos i'm planning to do after EOY.

FRIENDS OF THE YEAR 2010 AWARD
Yo, my dear friends! Look out! you might be in my video if you're a GREAT & AWESOME friend to me the past 1 yr. Till now, most... Okay, okay... EVERYONE of the good friends I can think abt is from my class this year.(surprisingly) ^^

YEAR 2010
How I felt about year 2010.
The things that happened, good, bad, so-so. ^^

CONFESSION
I have a confession to make. Most... Nevermind. EVERYBODY doesn't seem to know why I make a big fuss about friendships. This upcoming Vid might let you understand why.

I wanna make these vids... But till now, I still dun have my sony vegas. so I dunno how I'm gonna do these... Maybe with my dad's MacBook instead? :3

Sighs

That's all I do these few days: sigh.
Sigh, life's really damn unpredictable huh?
Strangers can become friends, best friends or the best of all the best. & vice versa: the best can also become enemies...
What the hell is friendship...
If change is nature, then I DARE declare, "I HATE NATURE! I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU!!!"
Everybody changed. Just changed... Sigh.
Its heartbreaking, to have the people whom you think was the best of all friends change infront of you. To find out that you don't really mean much to them, that you were never mentioned by them to their friends when you talk about them so much that people glues up your mouth cause you talk non-stop about them.
Its pathetic of me to still care about them when they don't even give a damn about me. Sigh, why is it always like this? For god sake, this is the 7th time already, when is all this drama-rama gonna end?! Why are people so mean? They come being my friends, I did my best for them, do whateva they want me to do, love them as a friend like crazy then they just go breaking my heart over a trival issue & then say "You changed." What the hell?
Why are they so bad? Why are they so mean? They're all I think about, care about, love about...
Damn, I'm pathetic aren't I? Sigh...

EOY 3 weeks

BOO!
3 weeks to EOY. :C Gotta improve my studies asap, only 3 weeks... T_T
Keith's giving me & some other kids Maths tution, so things should turn out right, RIGHT? *Ahem
Improving my maths & geo is my top priority now... So WILL BE staying away from my lappy for now. T_T
Anyways! New Blog bg! Took me awhile to do it since blogger keeps rejecting my photos cuz the memory was too big. XDD
Eh, nothing much to write.
I'm thinking of doing "Blog Vids" instead of typing next time, so the next time I post, it would probably be a video, no words since my stories are always so long that friends immediately close the window without even reading it :DD Neverminds...
& heck, I no longer love CO as much as I do last year... Juniors, SL position, & *ahem having cold war with my best friend...(Damn?) Guess I better stick to Jannah for now, dun wanna mix with "those group" of ppl.

I want this year to end, QUICK.

http://www.beattysecondaryschool.net/cos/o.x?c=%2Fwbn%2Fpagetree&func=view&rid=49097
Do not continue to read post unless u go see this link.
Go take a look @ the MAIN COMMUNITEE.

Its kinda disturbing to my eyes. If you were to take a look at the classes of the main comm ppl, what do you see? All Es & only 1 Na person. & whose that bold odd one out that dares to be in the main comm? ME. Heck?
T_T I didn't realise it till a few minute ago. Lol...

Not that I'm unhappy with CO or the website(which is now bugging me ALOT now emotionally.) I'm just unhappy & pissed off totally by myself.
Got my report book back today. Can't say I've done well, just "Not really bad." Overall percentage is 63.25%. Its low compared to last year's.
I admit, I deproved ALOT this year & I can't seem to improve on anything but continuing deproving... To say the truth: I wanna give up on aiming to go to E.
But on the other hand, its stupid. Cuz idk why, i just feel like a odd one out everywhere I go now cuz i'm a NA student.
Compare this compare that... Is that everything what adults do?
Damn, if only this year, I'm so damn stress, can anyone ever imagine what will happen to me if I were to go to express next yr? Beat it, no way i'll survive till my own birthday next year(which is in JAN?!!) & on the other hand, i'm afraid CO might give me another leadership post next year which i'm really really fearful now of. I might not be a Class CM again next yr(HELL NO, I'll SUICIDE INFRONT OF THE TEACHER's FACE!) but CO is stressful now, with all the probs we have these few days & all...(CO is no Diff from That hell of ppl that I see on weekdays now, fyi; the name "class" is not worth for them or us.)
WHAT THE HECK CAN I DO? I can't seem to be able to improve my studies, can't seem to improve some relationships b/w my juniors & some ppl & can't seem to do well at anything at all these few days.
I WANT THIS YEAR TO END, QUICK.