arrghhhhh!!!!! I'M GOING BERSERK!!!!!!!!!!!

i had it!! first i putted ELDDS as my 1st choice and yet i didn't get into it but got into some DAMN MILLITARY BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then went home , mum only kept on saying a big NOto this damn CCA!!! wanted to join ELDDS and yet my brother, himself as a member of ELDDS told me not to join it as it was boring!!!!! its not boredness i care about!! i just want to do what i like, drama! then music, also cannot! i'm gonna go berserk with all this going about!!!!!!!! i really really need help and yet there always,always never seemed to be somebody there to help me........ i rather torture myself then to let people torture me!! i had it for the last time!!!
SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!!!

bye?

looks like we really need to say gdbye to our frendship this time liao..
rac, val, me.......
bye bye........

CCA!!

my moodle account something wrong liao.. i tink i forgotten e password liao.....
luckily got another way to enter CCAs.. here's wad i put..
1st ELDDS
2nd beatty millitary band
3rd chinese orchestra


i dn't really want to go bk to chinese orchestra though..

CCA?!!?!!

went to beatty's CCA open house.. still dn't wad CCA too choose though..
wad should i do???!!

2009 will not be as good as i thought..

2009! i actually thought tat ..... i won't hav too much friendship probs liao... sigh.. Y MUST I ALWAYS BE WRONG ON THIS PART!!!!!!!!????????
am i cursed or wad?! ARRGH!!!!!!!!! i need help!! i'm always listening to others but never once myself!! tere nv seemed to be ayone to listen to my fears, worries, problems, or even stress.. y must i always wear stupid masks of fake emotions just to let ppl pour their problems to me????!!!!!!!!! i had it , I had it, I HAD it..
I HAD IT!!!!!!!!! y must i torture myself b'cos of others!! its always about them, them them!! when was it abt me!!!!?????? i dn't want to live this kind of life... everytime hiding all of my emotions, disagreements and stress... i'm really tired.... i'm been doing this since p4.. mayb b'cos of mixing with those "pai kia" when in p4 cos this to happen...





or is it..................












just ......

me??...............

from KCS member to a Beattyian.. lunar new year falls on 26th & 27th january!! noooo!!!!...

sigh.. i'v turned 13 liao (but birthday haven't pass) anw,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
hav officially become an beattyian liao... paying KCS a visit on the 23th january as they celabrating lunar new year early.. lunar new year falls on the 26th & the 27th(sadded.... my birthday leh!!!!) of january this year..cn't properly celabrate my 13th birthday... -_-'ll.. bet that most of my friends hav 4gotten liao.. didn't want to get too dissapointed so its best not to expect too much from them when we get back to KCS.. decided to buy a present for Chuan Kian since his birthday is the same as mine.. lol.. ( P.S, to ppl readin this entry dn't give me damn stupid cmments abt me or CK k?. if ignored i'll kill you!! lol.. jk jk.. you'll find out what i'll really do if you give stupid comments.. -_-'ll )
sigh.. what to do, what to do?!!